Last of Illusions

Saturday, July 31, 2004

I learn that you should never say that you hate something.. The more you say it, the more it will seem to seep through that thick skull and penetrate and somehow have that stupid effect of making you like that. I used to diss pink and black, but now i seem to think its a nice combination. I used to diss green, but i kind of find it bearable.. I usd to think brown is boring, and again, its getting somewhat okay to look at. I found techno music boring, but after a while, its kinda nice. And now, im beginning to think that some of the horrible oasis songs hafie sings is kinda okay and i find myself humming one of the stupid songs.. NO!!!!!!!!!! I WILL NEVER SUCCUMB TO THIS!

And we still dont know whether we are going for grad nite.. Im a fickle person, so sue me. I easily change my mind if persuaded. Now i feel all excited for grad nite..Maybe tomorrow, I wont. Nobody knows..

She rambled at 9:59 PM
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Monday, July 26, 2004

I cant believe how people can succumb to temptation!Its none of my business, but how can these people be soo goddamn weak? So damn disappointing..

The theme for grad nite is out.. Final Fantasy.. What kind of corny theme is that? I was excited by the fact that its at The Ritz Carlton.. But now, i just dun feel the excitement.. True, the whole fun of grad nite/prom is being there with your frens, the whole fuss about dresses and make up and everything! But if half ur frens are not going, then wat's the pt? Im kinda half hearted about it anyway.. Siggh.. but its still once in a lifetime opportunity... ive been dreaming of gg for prom at a bloody nice hotel, but no.. TJ had to spoil it..Nvm, we shall dress up and go for dinner at a nice posh restaurant..

She rambled at 7:19 PM
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Sunday, July 25, 2004

OOh!! Just finished watching X-Men!! Wakhakhaha!!! Cyclops is cute!!!!!!!!!!! Okay okay..he looks horrible when he's not cyclops.. Like small boy, with baggies..But he looks good in x men!! haha! Okay, im babbling! hahahah!

I feel so accomplished this weekend!! Did sooo much things and i just realised there's 14 weeks to a levels. Thats fast..

Oh damn! That webshots thing can only haf 1 account.. now i hafta go find sthng else.. Sorry sya.. Cant upload the photos yet..

She rambled at 10:09 PM
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Friday, July 23, 2004

Wohoo! I lurve this new blog!! Its been soo long since I last updated this thing!! SO exciting! Rigghttt...

Anyway, Im gonna write a loongg story.. Ehemz.. First up: Bahas 4PM

TJ won! yay! It was soo damn expected.. Shall not say anything else about the TP pembahas.. The net is not safe.. SSshhh...Anyway, some ppl made cards with the debaters' names for us to hold up at the studio..It was fun!! And so pink! Against black..I dont know why..I used to hate pink and black, but now it seems such a nice colour.. Oh well, the girly side is back.. Anyway, we got so high in the bus.. We were making so much noise..so Kecoh and singing all the way..even raya song! but yarh, its fun..And we r gonna miss 1st 2 weeks of raya cuz of A levels!

Street busking(dikir)

Okay..Firstly, racial harmony day in tj really sucked.. More than 3/4 of the school wasnt wearing costumes..Sigh..Boring! Last yr we had a mini carnival sort of thing..Anyway, our dikir yesterday wasnt fantastic either.. And i wasnt in the mood..But still, somehow i got high in the canteen, so it wasnt too bad.. I was trembling while singing the Karut Matang and forgot the lyrics so i just sang the scenario version..And i din know wat to do, so i just stood there..Hahah! oh well, not karut material..Salmah was the funny karut, and Hafie was the wau karut! She sat while singing the wau bulan..Some ppl said she went too high..(No wonder it was nicer and easier to sing..hmm)Oh well..it was nice though.. and the pictures were horrible!! aargh!

I seriously need to start studying!! Im procrastinating soo much! and there's only 6 more weeks to prelims starting next week..I guess ill ground myself in the lib starting next week..Gosh!! How am i gonna score for my As????

She rambled at 8:44 PM
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Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Is there actually a need to update blog? im supposed to be studying now, but guess wat am i doing? Not studying.. I wanna go to manifestasi, but mommy wont allow me to.:( Argh, crap! Im definitely not in the mood for blogging!

She rambled at 6:16 PM
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Saturday, July 10, 2004

bloop?? what kind of word is tt? feelind damn sad.. I tink my head will never get better..Mom just found another spot.. I dun want another 5 shots on another spot on my head. My hair still drops when i wash my hair.. The amount of hair collected after each time i shampoo my hair is the same amount that drops WEEKLY wen i was in pri school. What's happening to me?? If this goes on, ill be forced to start wearing tudung. I mean its not as if im unwilling..Ive already thought hard about starting to wear tudung since yr 1.. Just that I still need time to stock up first.. I cant jump into doing it..And its not as if im wearing it just to cover my head(as in cuz of the spots), i noe it sounds like that, but for one thing, it is still embarassing to go out with those bloody stuff! DAMN!

She rambled at 11:00 PM
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Its been a few weeks since i last updated my blog..Okay.. several days.. I got back all my JCT results, except for GP.Surprisingly, i was not surprised by my results.. Guess i screwed maths and chem. which were my bette subjects than physics.. But in the end, physics was my highest mark(surprised?)Funny how life turns out. I went to collect the digi cam today..finally..and went out wif mom.. We went to alot of places and im still feeling bored..Went to novena sq, went around and looked at the food at the food fest thingy..bought the nutri-choco thingy cuz it looks soo good( Cuz nat said its nice..see nat, u influenced me! wahkahkhaka!)Well, i agree wif ya..its good..i like it. n its pretty cheap. I got hungry and bought the wonton from the mly stall.. Then went to starbucks and waited for mom, and bought the choc cream ice blended thingy...ITS PURE INDULGENCE..But they could have been more generous withe the choc though..Got mom to buy me this cute necklace for me and Dila..Its soo easy..Just keep staring at it and say its so nice over and over again..And she'll ask if i want it..Hahahha!

Yesterday was liana's bdae.. I wanted to wish her happy birthday 18 times, but i forgot..Nvm..and btw, Liana, i love you present.If u dun want it anymore, ill have it okay..! Its a coca-cola alarm clock, with a hammer pounding on 2 bells..Now u have no excuse to wake up late or arrive late for appointments...(that's a threat btw..):P Me, khai, liana and zub went to mac after school..When exactly was the last time zub went out with us after school? hUmm..1 yr ago? ZUb did the stupid latent heat expt on khairun, but tt girl is too sharp.. so zub got splashed the most.. Lucky khairun,for being paranoid..(",)

Its so fast..im gonna take my a lvls soon..and im gonna turn 18 soon..Bah..i still feel like a kid..Hello? even ppl notice i am kiddish..who am i kidding..bloop..

She rambled at 10:45 PM
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Sunday, July 04, 2004

Im bored! Bored! at least ill be going out tmr, wif the 2/8 ppl..I miss u guys!What are we doing actually? aside from bowling? I have no idea..

Now that the picture of the girl has diappeared, i have replaced it, with food! wohoo! im gonna change the picture often!! yay!! And finally iwebmusic uploaded nicer songs..So i changed it to My happy ending by Avril..

ANd btw Sya, mash and Hafie..the picture we took during the swimming thing din turn out..:(not a single piece! So sad! nvm, we haf an excuse to go swimming again okay..

OH! i have a stalker! i have a stalker! yay! (riggghhhhtttt....)

She rambled at 5:20 PM
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Thursday, July 01, 2004

Im back from swimming at hafie's place.. Swimming was damn fun!! We must do it again.. Firstly, we played tennis and badminton at the tennis court..At least my badminton 'skills' were better than tennis.. i got tired after running after the stupid green ball..Then 1.15 or sthng, we stopped playing and started talking about Islam vs Christianity and the stuffs abt org-org ditarik masuk agama tersebut..I cant believe tat they were sangat bodoh untuk diperdayakan sedangkan mereka sudah mempunyai agama atau kepercayaan masing-masing..Looks like IMAN tak kuat gitu..(notice im writing in malay.. its for a purpose agar org-org yg bukan melayu islam tidak membaca blog saya)

We ate pizza at Sya's hse.. 2 4 1 pizza..Seafood and tandoori chicken.. The tandoori chicken was really nice, but the seafood lacked alot of stuff..It was full of tuna and onions though..The tabasco sauce practically burnt my mouth..Its not pedas, but its like fiery..

Im so black, red and sleep..My hands are black..thanks to tennis and badminton..My face is red, thanks to swimming..and putting my face at the jacuzzi bubble thingy..But i like my rosy face! wakhakhahakakhka!! natural blush!! :P au naturele(stng liddat)

Oh ya..and there's sooo much food at home..there's portugese egg tarts, fried wonton, lemang and lepat(i tink) and blah blah.. I tink ill go to novena sq earlier today before meeting my mom so i can look at all the food..yay!

She rambled at 10:37 PM
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Im at sya's hse now.. and we are gg swimming at hafie's hse!! yay! juz waiting for hafie and mash to finish praying actually..

She rambled at 7:21 PM
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