Last of Illusions

Monday, October 31, 2005

Been procrastinating wayyy wayy too much.. Woke up at 9, decided to watch some tv, and told myself to study at 10.. Den i realise that my notes are all over the place so i decided to organise my study table and my notes and everything. And den i figured while im clearing stuff, i might as well start clearing the messy corner of my room.. 1 hr gone. and den wen im about to start studying, i decided to check edventure for the physics exam format and topics covered, and told myself ill start at 11.30. and now its almost 12 and here i am, still online. i need motivation to study! it doesnt help tat raya is in 3 days time! okay, start at 12! hopefully...

She rambled at 11:47 AM
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Saturday, October 29, 2005

ive resorted to dumping the new books and vcd i have inside my cupboard..these things hanging around on my shelf gives off attractive vibes.. hah.. if i cant see, i wont be tempted.. haha..the things u do to force yourself to study.. cant be helped. i get distracted even with scotch tape! and furry pens and hole punchers, and post its and push pins.. well, basically everything.. its a good thing i dun have photoshop installed in my laptop, or else i wont even study.. and its a gd thing i dun noe how to play with macromedia dreamweaver and flash maker.. ill go crazy doing all those stuff instead of studying! at least half the time my laptop's away from me cuz my sister is using it..and my progress for phy & analytical chem is so freaking slow.. im pretty much screwed for my finals.there goes my honours.. and ive decided tt i dun wanna take up a minor. i dun care hw much it makes me more attractive to future employers. i dun think i can cope with the my core, whatsmore with a minor. if sya tinks she's screwed 5 different ways, im screwed 6 different ways..oh well, i really just wanna get exams over and done with..

She rambled at 8:06 PM
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My room is in a dreadful mess. bah bah bah! and next week's raya!! horrible man!
on the other hand, yesterday we went to city hall to look for khairun's sister's birthday present and me and sya bought each other's presents.. hah.. my birthday presents! from everyone..haha.. i love the one with the pink candle! haha.. yay! so my birthday presents for the next few years are set! whee!

Oh ya.. and i saw this book, 2 cookbooks.. one is lust for chocolate, the other is i duno wad title.. but the pictures inside are soooo droolworthy.. and yummy looking..okay..cant wait to buy the book after exams! 25th nov,here i come! to do on 25th nov:
-reverse bungee
-gelare or andensen's
-shucks i cant rmbr wad we planned already..whoops..

She rambled at 10:45 AM
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Thursday, October 27, 2005

I dreamt tat i din fast. and the worst thing was that all my friends din fast, and we din even feel guilty. i kept stuffing my mouth with muchies and whatnots without even realising it. wad de?? and my friends werent even my friends to begin with.. they din even look familiar! except like one or two, who i cant remember who they are now. And some of them were actually the current yr 2s malay girls! omg.. and anyway, we were in this house(which looks strangely like my old house at bedok) and we were waiting. for duno wad.. and then we were suddenly discussing about one of our friends, who happen to be damn clingy up to the point tat she's psychotic and den de rest of us wanted to leave the house(which apparently was hers) when she came back. and after tat the dream doesnt really make sense and its all a mush in my head right now. aha. ramble ramble..

i bought my raya shoes! so lawa!! and de best thing? its the first raya sandals/shoes tat i can wear with other clothes. yay! one of these days i shall wear it with jeans. Heels: makes me look taller, and my already short stumpy legs have the illusion of being slightly longer.good! Here i am,blogging, when im supposed to be bathing and getting ready for school. i dunno wad to wear!! tmr's the last day of school (yay!) no more travelling to ntu for 1 week.. aha.. i just hate walking from my house to the mrt station..yuck! And next week's already raya. cant believe its that fast.. i din even realise more than half of ramadhan is gone, but i haven even gone thru more half of my subjects for revision. dun talk abt revision. haven even touched them to study!

She rambled at 9:27 AM
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Sunday, October 23, 2005

WHY ARE THERE POP-UPS ON MY BLOG??? SO IRRITATING MAN! Anyway, i think the presence of our collective blog has made my blog quite stagnant.haha..i tend to update on the other blog than on this blog.. oh well..not many people read this blog and those who do, now read the collective blog instead. good. hah.. Well, another birthday has just come and gone just like tat. I used to look forward to my birthday alot, but now, it just seems like a day i get birthday wishes and presents. aha..not tat im complaining but there's just no more excitement for me.. bah! Why??? oh WHY???? i love birthdays!! And next year is so cacat. neither a teen, nor an adult. hah.. okay, shldnt complain. some people dun even get birthday wishes (whatsmore presents) so i should be thankful for all those stuff. ooh guess wad my sister got me?? a sprungball! i cant wait to inflate de ball and bounce around the house with it..haha.. and i finally got my wireless going! here i am, blogging my first entryinto this blog in my room.. haha..wad bliss.
Today marks the last ten days of ramadhan.. i cant believe how fast time passes. which means finals are getting too close and im not studying properly. im only studying the subjects which i feel like studying.. tats bad! PAC needs more TLC from me. aargh! and tats de subject tat i dun understand most and i din buy the textbook for it. Which means, im royally screwed up. I never realise that the subjects in uni are much heavier than those in jc (and people said jc was the worst time of their lives). I miss hanging out at the scope, attempting to study while waiting for de rest to finish class, gg for lunch and the old mcs room.
One of these days, i'll have to clean up my room. Its nearing raya! which means our moms are gonna be clean freaks, and more perfectionist than ever.. haha.. they just dun realise how troublesome it is to clear up all the books and school stuff, only to take them out within the next hour cuz i need to study. And its scientifically proven that disorderliness is the natural way of life. To keep them neat requires extra energy input.
Oh ya.. Happy 19th birthday to sya!

She rambled at 12:56 PM
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

people! the next time i wana cut hair, pls pls pls advice me against cutting it like short! beyond my shoulder short. i look like a boy! and its disgusting. okay..it looks nice only within one week after cutting my hair. after that, it becomed damn fugly. all my life, i have experimented with sooo many different hairstyles, i cant remember which one looks nice and which one doesnt. i remember last year in july wen i cut my hair damn freaking short(almost crop short) and nobody told me i look like a boy!!! why?? now that i look back at photos of me with that ugly short hair, i really look like a boy.yuck. and my teeth last time looks horrible. real horrible. haha..sorry.. ive been looking at all those old photos. brings back great and horrible memories. on a lighter note, the dentist told me tat i could take the braces off early next year. finally! im quite sick of having all those wires poking my mouth. hah..
i cant wait for raya. so far the only raya confirmed..okay..sort of..is with the tj girls..dunno abt the tkg girls.. its soo hard to coordinate man.. n with exams all whatnots, we are only left with 1 day!
i cant wait till after exams. i cant wait. 25th nov! if all goes well, we shall go reverse bungee on tat day! i cant wait! oh ya. finally got my wireless. mom;s gg to collect it tmr. cant wait! so exciting.. ya..i get excited over these kind of small stuff, there's nuthing else to look forward to except 2 tests tis week and 1 more on the last day of school, aka next fri. bleagh.and finals. which is in 2 n 1/2 weeks time.. wohoo.

She rambled at 9:30 PM
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Saturday, October 15, 2005

OMG.. i think being blonde runs in de family.. yesterday my cousin just msg me: "dayah and dil, u noe ryt tt i passed my driving. actually i wanna surprise u all, but i guess u all noe tt cuz kak nash wrote it on her blog. so dun tell ur mom okay." something like tat.. hahaha.. she pecah tembelang herself. we din even noe abt her passing her driving until she told us...kak meal cute lah.. anyway, she passed her driving on 1st try and took driving for 4 mths plus (if im not mistaken)..wayy cool! i wanna take driving too.. next year cuz tats wen my mom finally finish paying off for my braces. whee! cant wait. oh ya! and sya passed her BTT.. cool!

She rambled at 2:24 PM
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Thursday, October 13, 2005

okay..so not all of u agree that ming dao is good looking. fine. to each her own i guess...tak suka, tak sukalah.. all de better for me i guess... no need to fight with soo many people over him..ahhaha.. dun like him? he's ugly? he's sissy?? so wad? i like him. that's all tat matters.. anyway he's just a star anyway. like wad sya said yesterday, not like i would actually get to meet him anyway.. come on.. among all of us, the person who actually got up close and personal with her idol is sya. de rest of us can keep dreaming and if our idol happens to be ugly like hell to de rest, who cares?? its our own idol anyway. we all keep saying how slenger bacin oasis is and all but tat doesnt stop hafie from liking them, so why would this stop me from liking ming dao anyway?? hahahha..seems like im making a big deal of this but actually i wanted to blog something but i cant think of anything to blog about!! haha..

She rambled at 11:35 AM
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Sunday, October 09, 2005

okay..im so in love with this guy right at the moment.. and so is zub!! we keep swooning over him over msn..hahaha.. he's damn good-looking man! catch him at 7.30pm on ch U on wed-fri.. he's soo cute and charming!

i swoon over chinese, korean, hindustan guys.. but i dun swoon over malays.. wad a life! haha

She rambled at 12:15 AM
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Monday, October 03, 2005

after waiting for almost 2 months, i finally got my laptop!!! whoopeedoowheepeepedoo! hahah! and ya, i had to go thru so many obstacles to get my laptop. first, had to wait almost a month till i sign my pc loan. and then have to wait almost another month for the stupid laptop to arrive, and i got the call last saturday from the computer shop. think that's the end of my misery and obstacle? nope. the big one is yet to come. My mom gave me $$ to pay for the remaining amt for the laptop. me, the smart one, thinking that putting it in the bank is safer, i deposited to $$ into the CAM. and then, the stupid machine makes snorting noises and started wheezing and coughing ans sputtering, and then the big message on the screen:" Transaction unsuccessful. Your cash is RETAINED for safe keeping." wad de **&%&$(&(&##%???!!!! i had to queue up for another 15 mins to get my $$ back and the lady said i had to fill some form and i may get my $ back in the afternoon, which is highly unlikely. and then she said she has to call the technician and then maybe tmr ill get my $$ back. Called my mom and she gave me 330, in $2 notes(the $$ my dad got ready for raya) and i had to carry this thick envelope full of $$. and the people at the computer shop were luffing at me becuase of 300 bucks worth of $2. wad a life man. and finally i got my laptop. been transferring files frm my comp to the laptop. and transferring the charmed videos ONE by ONE cuz its damn big. so tiring. and my laptop's so hot. i still haven figured out how to use all the functions. One fine day i shall sit down and read the manual. hahhaha.. liana, if ur reading this, which is highly unlikely, pls bring my photoshop cd okay? on fri..

She rambled at 9:25 PM
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Saturday, October 01, 2005

reached home at 2am this morning after watching the Four Brothers midnight show at causeway point with dila. ITs a freaking good show, and definitely recommended to watch. Its about these 4 street kids adopted by a lady, and she was killed at a liquor store one day(when the kids are all grown up). It looked like a gang drive by shooting, and that she happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time, but it was actually a planned shooting. SO the brothers set out to find the actual killer of their mother. Half the time we were trying to figure out what they were talking about cuz of the street language, but it just adds to the charm of the show. Alot of crude language going around, but they were funny and there were sad parts too. esp when they were watching the video of the CCTV when the mom died, and later them reminiscing abt their mom at the dinner table, and the saddest of all: when another person died. Im not gg to spoil this for u guys who are planning to watch it, so u can go and find out who died. Im so gonna buy the dvd wen it comes out. oh ya. and corpse bride too.

She rambled at 11:03 PM
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