Last of Illusions

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

I saw a nice top today at causeway point. A really nice top. I like tat shop alot. It always has stuff that I like but never seem to buy, but there's one huge problem. Okay, more like tiny problem. It sells clothes in itty-bitty sizes, those that fit n2f and mash and salmah but not me. But its soo pretty! Soo unlike what I usually wear (which is tees and jeans but i gotta start dressing nicely someday right?) Anyway that was only 1 reason I didnt buy it. Another reason was that I was carrying wayyy too many stuff (my huge folder, bag, and plastic bags full of my errands). And plus, I was way too depressed about Fluids today.

Stuffs that require calculations or mathematical manipulations whatsoever shouldnt be open-book exams. Seriously, I feel so much better when formulas are provided instead of me having to flip through my mountain of thick book and notes, and plus the table was so freaking small i kept dropping everything. I mean I've had open book exams before, but those were all essay stuff, where u can put that particular notes on ur table for at least more than 10 mins because ur writing something, instead of having to constantly flip thru for formulas and all.

I thought computing was bad, this is the worst ever so far. I keep thinking that today's a nightmare and when I wake up, this hasnt happened yet, but i just woke up from a nap, and nope, its still REALITY. sigghhh.

Okay ive completely lost track of what i wanted to rant about!

Ooh! Just now on the way home, zub asked me for my recipe for the cupcakes i baked during raya. Cant believe I could remember the ingredients but not my fluids stuff. Huge sign I should quit school and become a chef, no?

She rambled at 6:24 PM
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Tuesday, November 21, 2006

2 down, 3 more difficult papers to go.

I really don't know how you people survive writing essays. I seriously hate writing essays. I had to write 4 essays within 2 hours today, and my finger feel likes its about to drop off anytime. 30 minutes for 1 essay isnt enuf time u noe. I have to think, plan, rest my hand and write legibly and coherently. There's a reason I took a course that doesnt require much writing. How in the world you all think fast and write fast at the same time is beyond my understanding. *completely baffled*

And there was a question about stress just now. hmm..same symptoms as what Ive been experiencing for the past few days/weeks? I therefore diagose myself as being stressed, and I suggest throwing away all my books and burning them in the incinerator: provide heat energy to my already hot and stuffy room.

She rambled at 9:30 PM
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Monday, November 20, 2006

CRRRAAAPPP!! omg! I feel like kicking myself in the head! oh gosh. I cant believe how stupid i can get!! SHIT SHIT SHIT! I cant believe i left out a 5.5 marks question because i couldnt figure out the entire question and thought i could come back to the question. I totally forgot about it! SHIT SHIT SHIT! Today has turned out to be a goddamn bad day. *go bang head against the wall*
I tink im turning suicidal. I even managed to cut my left wrist during exam just now. sheesh. dayah turning suicidal!

I should just go to sleep. Maybe ill wake up and discover that today has been a bad bad nightmare.

She rambled at 10:26 PM
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Sunday, November 19, 2006

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO KHAIRUN KENTAL!

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday to Khairun kental
Happy Birthday to YOooOOOoooOOUUUU!

Okay dah. Enjoy your bdae blah blah.. have lots of fun which isnt that much since its exam period and ur bz mugging for computing and bio this week but who the hell cares! We shall PRATY..eh wrong.. PARTY after exams! Clubs and Pubs, here we come!!

This is what over-studying does to you. Makes you think the cake is out to murder you!

She rambled at 12:09 AM
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Thursday, November 16, 2006

I never really noticed why some of my instructors look familiar. Check this out. They could be brothers!

This guy isnt really my driving instructor cuz he's from another group, but he took me for my stage 3 evaluation a few days ago.

And THIS! Uncanny resemblance right????

Okay this guy is one of my instructors. dun really like him. He's the scariest of the lot.

They look even more alike in real life! The photos are pretty old anyway. wakhkahkahhka!! such cheap thrills. okay this is what happens to me when im stressed or study too much (or too little for that matter!). My sister's final A lvl paper is tmr. lucky ass. no more exams for 1 whole freaking year!

She rambled at 4:37 PM
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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Check it out!! My brand new ipod nano! Its mine! All mine!!
This thing is sooo freaking tiny and thin im soo scared Ill break it if i hold it too tightly, but that's jsut stupid because ill just break it and there goes my $320. i lovee my ipod nano!! so freaking thin it looks like a piece of blue wafer crisp. hahahha.

She rambled at 7:15 PM
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Monday, November 13, 2006

Its the raya tradition. We MUST have shoes galore photo.

I love jalan raya. I love love love jalan raya. We started at 10am at Liana's house but most of us came at around 1040 or so. Then we celebrated the november people's birthday (salmah and Khairun) with cookies and cream cupcakes with cookies and cream frostings or white choc macadamia frostings. (yeap! now i ony have 497 recipes to try!)

Nike cookies. Who ever heard of Nike cookies right????? i liked the pink frosted part. fine. I like anything sweet and nice.

white choc frostings on cookies&cream cupcakes and cookies&cream frostings on cookies&cream cupcakes.

Sofi's house:
Celebrated the remaining november people's (ili and sofi's) birthday. Waited for the stupid stupid bus driver. My mom called Woodlands transport and the person said she never received the email that my mom wrote regarding pick-up point. Hello. There's MY handphone number there to contact. Dont give me shit. That person even replied "noted confirm". The bus was a huge contrast to last year's. The aircon was faulty and dripping. The bus was freaking hot! Sheesh! Next year, I'm soooo gonna drive for raya! (provided I actually pass my driving).

purple clan! why do I always have some kind of food in my hand when I take photos???

n2f's house:

Hafie, Sya and I were so semangat to pray zuhur first BUT we HAD to walk past the food table. So its food first, pray later. hahahaha. Her grandma cooked really nice chicken! and some breaded fishballs. NICE! OH! And we took 48926260 group photos using Nat's, zub's, ili's and Hafi AW's cameras.

Khairun applying lip gloss for nuriahtu in the bus, who was pretty much apprehensive of khairun's make up skills. hah!

Zub AJ's house:
We were pretty much stuffed by the time we reached here. I love her kitchen! Its huge! Great for baking man.

Dont mess with us. Go go Power Rangers!

Filza's house:
Most of us didnt plan to eat, but once we saw the food, we couldnt resist it. There was oreo cheesecake, egg pudding, spaghetti with white sauce, some gravy thingy with foccacia bread, maple cookies --> love these! they are super sweet but damn addictive! And she had ultra cool drinks and kitchen. (i have no idea what's with my obsession with kitchens)

The pudding thingy. I love filza's mom!!

The only group photo in my camera!

Salmah's house:
She had yet another pudding for us! I love the pudding!! oh, and her mom baked for her choc cake, so we celebrated salmah's birthday another time. The choc cake had this really really nice choc sauce on top of it. YUMMY! And she had some prawn fritters thingy, made by her aunt. Super nice! Zahara's all cute and blah blah. Sorry salmah! She's cute and lovable and all, but Im seriously not a kids-person.

I thought I took alot of pictures here. apparently with everybody else's camera except mine.

Amal's house:
The most pedas soto ever! Her room's all cheery and bright yellow. OOH! and we looked thru tj yearbook and laughed at all our kental faces, especially mine. Stupid photographer. ppft!

Taha's house:
The first thing I heard when we came in was Taha's mom telling us there's a single guy in the house (taha's cousin) and she's looking for a girl for him or something like that. *horror look upon ALL our faces* All attached!! (to each other). She kept telling him to come out and look or something. wkahakhkah! We felt like we were being 'lelong-ed'. madness i swear.

Us, with taha and his mom.

Hafie's house:
The shortest time ever! I think we stayed all of 20 mins or less and then went to Sya's house.

I love the paintings on the wall. Done by Farhanah, Hafie' sister! They look store-bought!

We will always have at least ONE mirror photo! Halo above my head, again. What more can I say???

Balcony photo!

Check out mash in the background

Sya's house:
Practically all our parents fetched us here. Too tired to walk/take bus home. I think we seriously get crazy and high when we are tired. Danced and performed to raya songs, which got boring after a while (okay, my attention span is really really short when im tired). And we took jumping photos!in our baju kurungs. How in the world do you jump gracefully anyway?

Tired us. What's left of the damn big group. Salmah cant be seen cuz she's lying down.

mash doing some "mumbo jumbo" to the tissue.

I proudly present, Graduates of the Otak-otak Academy 2006. Check out the resemblance with the picture of the actual graduate in the background.

Grand Finale. The 5 survivors of jalan raya!

Get the link to the pictures from the other blog. dwld it within 7 days!

She rambled at 11:00 AM
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Saturday, November 11, 2006

Mummy ur on dropshots! I didnt have the heart to upload it on youtube. Thats my mom. The smallest of the lot. And this was her baby, Perjumpaan Hari Raya at TTSH. I found it pretty boring cuz the whole thing was full of people singing old songs (well, it WAS Nostalgia blah blah..the 60s theme) but there's a limit to how much singing I could take, no matter how much entertainment it was.

The opening of the program.

My mom doing zapin. The simplest of all simple zapins ever! Does the costume look purplish in any way? its soo pink lah. And btw, its a GUY's dikir costume. Looks like our zapin costume from tkgs right?

There was this makcik who was dancing and singing at a very disturbing way. I shall not say anything here. Blogs arent exactly the safest place on earth. The professional dancers that my mom got from my aunt were terrible. Even I was and still am a better dancer than them! Thats how terrible they were. Apparently my aunt sent a different group of girls for this actual performance. tsk tsk. Talk abt minahs galore! Its so disgusting to see girls dancing traditional dance with blonde hair. If any of the minahs happen to find this blog. So be it. HEY YOU PEOPLE! You guys really really suck. To think my mom paid so much to get a sucky performance. And please, if you're so unenthusiastic about dancing, why the hell did you join dance in the first place? Call yourself professional dancers. You didn't even look at the audience or smile while dancing. Dumbass. Okay fine. I know Im being extremely bitchy right now but i really really cant stand them!

I tink the highlight of the whole hari raya thingy was the zapin finale and the start after the interval. It was this guy dressd in a sari, acting as an achi. Hilarious! And he didnt get out of his costumes until the entire thing ended. Ooh! Lucky draw! My sis won 3rd, i won 12th, my cousin got dunno what. Anyway My sis got tupperwares (which my mom loved) and I got a stupid blender (that my mom donated for the lucky draw cuz she wanted to get rid of it). cursed blender. hah! and my cousin won some spa voucher i think. [Pictures will be uploaded tmr, after i come back frm jln raya with the girls. leceh to upload bit by bit! ]

She rambled at 1:30 PM
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Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Hey you guys. The bus is a 10 seater because 20 seater is too damn expensive. Ili will be driving so 6 of u can take the car. Its $13 per person(except Ili), regardless of whether u take the car or not. (Ili, ill settle the petrol $$ with u after everybody has paid me). Dont worry people. Ili's a safe driver. hah! And no more discount. $13 is the cheapest I managed to get.

People coming :
Liana, Sya, Dayah, Khairun, Nuriahtu, Mash, Salmah, Hafie+Fana, Dr Zub, Zub AJ, Zaf, Nat, Sofi, Hafi AW, Hafi Ariffin, Amal,Ili

Lyd and Firah cant come. hmmph.

(The rest didnt reply. So I dont know whether they got my msg or they aren't coming.)

Tentative plan for this sunday:
The praying houses (zuhur asar and maghrib) is tentative as well. We'll play it by ear this sunday.

10am: Be at Liana aka Norli's house.
11am: Walk to Sofi's house
12pm: Bus will fetch us from Sofi's house to n2f's house. Ili, meet here okay, so the girls can take ur car as well.
1pm: Leave n2f's house.
130pm: Reach Mash's hse + zuhur
3pm: Reach Filza's house
4pm: Reach Salmah's house
5pm: Amal's house
7pm: Zaf's house + maghrib
8pm: Zub AJ's house
9pm: Hafie's house.
** This is very important. We have to reach Hafie's house BY 9pm or there wont be any transport there. I booked the bus from 12pm to 9pm only.

She rambled at 9:02 PM
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Saturday, November 04, 2006

For a stalker like me, I get this mini excitement when I recognise people around school because I've been stalking their blogs. Its like "hey! I know you! I read your blog last night." And i turn to my friends to share the excitement but then I realise they don't stalk these people's blogs. You know how it is. Its like meeting a friend and ur hand just shoots up to wave and then u realise that the person doesnt know you at all. I know who the party goers are, I know the narcissistic ones. I know the lesbian ones. And I know the butch ones. Surprise surprise. You guys remember the girl we saw around school and you were wondering whether she's a girl or a guy? Yeap. She's stalked. At least on a secondary basis.

Okay fine. My life's boring. Even people around me are boring. Im not insulting you guys, but there's seriously lack of drama around cuz we are such goody goody people. Its like Days of Our lives, the boring part, stretched 1000 times. Thats why i rely on gossips, and tv shows and exciting blogs and books to survive. Its like a drug. Its like a demon I cant face down. Its like Im stuck. Okay Sya would know this song. I think im developing Psychosis: a mental condition wherby the patient completely loses touch with reality.

Im really looking forward to friday next week because that means Ive gotten over hell week. This coming week is seriously gonna be hell. heck. Hell week starts today, but the procrastinator in me decides to give me a break. At least Ive done my malay music essays. Lets scare myself to death today with deadlines:

Tuesday:
Fluids tutorial

Wednesday:
Thermo tutorial 4
Thermo tutorial 5
Bio tutorial
Malay music reflections
Malay music essay

Thursday:
Computing C++ (2 programming)
Mathematica assignment 4
Mathematica qn 5 programming

Oh yes. My heart stopped beating. I needed to shock my heart into beating again.

Im trying to push those panic feelings aside after seeing the C++ programming on khairun's blog and shwetha's nick. Great way to remind me to start studying. Crap crappity crap crap crap. Im in deep deep deep crap that I cant get out of. Oh and there's still jalan raya to plan, which I dont mind planning, PROVIDED people actually REPLY to my smses. Sheesh. Dont start complaining if things goes wrong man.

She rambled at 9:34 PM
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Friday, November 03, 2006

This is definitely something worth mentioning. I dreamt that Sya and I met McMat. I think he was gonna have a performance cuz he was all dressed up and wearing tanjak. NICE! WOHOO! Imagine our excitement when we saw him. I think I could feel my heart do the pitter patter thing. Hhahahha! I think Hafie was there also, but somewhere in the background. For some reason my dad was there too. And as usual, we were being our unwitty and guy-unfriendly self. But at least we actually talked to him. I cant really remember what we talked about. And! The stupid thing was that we didnt ask him to sing. ahahah!

Okay seriously. This is a really crappy rambling. I cant believe I just wrote that.

She rambled at 9:06 AM
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